HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN

Today is a hard day for our family. Today is our twin angels 2nd birthday. They were born on July 14, 2006 at 22 weeks. Parker Bryant and Grace Lee were born together at 10:43pm. Parker grew wings at 11:04pm and little Gracie held on until 11:59pm. Despite all of our efforts to keep them from being born, God was calling them home. I feel especially blessed to have met them and to have had the opportunity to hold them in my arms, even if just for a moment. See, my life has been forever changed by them. This day will forever remain a blessing and a curse for me. While it is a celebration of their life, it is also the anniversary of their death. Forgive me if I get a little too emotional on here, but be glad you are not in my head. It is hard enough to have lost our twins, but to have a constant reminder of what I don't have is too much. Seeing Moms out and about with their double stroller and people stopping them in the store to comment on her twins is hard to see. But the media is taking it to another level. First there was JLo and Marc Anthony and their twins, now Brad and Angelina! I can't take it anymore. Don't those people have enough children, and what makes them deserve their twins more than I do. These are the thoughts that rage through my mind everyday. Especially when they hit me when I least expect it, like on the cover of People Magazine in the checkout aisle at the grocery store. When I was a teenager and a boy broke up with me, I claimed I had a broken heart. Well I was wrong. I didn't have the faintest clue what a broken heart was until I attended my own children's funeral.

I laid awake last night replaying the whole day that they were born, it is like a movie that keeps playing over and over for the past 2 years. While it was on a continuous loop for the first year, it has slowed down to every now and then. I don't ever want to forget that day, but I wish it had turned out differently. Today we are supposed to be chasing around a little boy and a little girl to try to get them to pose for a birthday picture or stop long enough to blow out their candles. We don't get to do that with them, they are spending their birthday with Jesus.

Over the last 2 years, a lot has happened as a result of losing our precious angels; Our faith continues to grow and I even have Jeff going to church. And after a lot of hard work and prayer we now have Carter Bryant in our lives. I stare at him and wonder if they would've been anything like him. Carter looked so much like Parker did, and Grace and Tucker could've been twins.

Please say a little prayer for Parker and Grace, and for our family so that we can get through this day and continue to heal. Our hearts are on the mend, but we still struggle. To those who know us, thank you for your support over the last 2 years.

Please click on their names to visit their website and light a candle for my babies on their birthday. (Disclaimer-my angels are perfect to me, but might be hard for others to see-their pictures are on the bottom of the website, so do not scroll all the way down if you wish to not see them-but like I said they are perfect to me)

Parker & Grace Morris